The Hollywood Bowl or Korean Music Festival was amazing! It was one of the best weekend ever for most of Asians living in America while for someonelikeme, its hell. Hell cuz they wasn't able to go there, it was such a lost, some are friggin jealous and some are dying likeme. I'm just thankful to all of the people who went there and recorded a fancam. I was gonna cry a bucket when I saw a fancam of the boys. I swear, the fans were so close to them! Like, they're half an inch away from the boys! I wonder what would it be like when time comes that I'm gonna meet them... I don't care how or when but just to see, meet and greet with them in person, I'm happy. ha!
Also, in the past few days, I was productive! I was able to eat 3 meals! I know you are wondering whats up with "I was able to eat 3 meal!" thingy. Sometimes, I over use my body. I've been sleeping really late these days, like 4am and sometimes 6am and believe it or not, I woke up at 2pm sometimes 6pm. And skip my breakfast and lunch. Thats the reason I'm still sick. My cough is still here. It worries me and my family, alot. When I cough, its like somethings blocking my air way that I can't breathe. Maybe one of the reasons why its like this is cuz I love to slouch even in standing or walking... I don't have that what you call "proper posture". Meh.
Due to the lack of sleep, I lose weight. Really. Some of the clothes that I no longer use are now used. Like my purple lined pair of jeans..it fits on me now. Its annoying that some people say I gained weight when the truth is lost some. John Lo even told me I looked chubbier than last year. Oh please. As if you've seen me. We only had our chat few nights ago and he commented on my YM pic saying "You look chubbier~". Meh.
Oh. and yeah. As promised, here are some of the screen caps I took while me and John Lo were chatting. HAHAHAHAHA!
Aish. fuck imageshack today. It won't load!!! I've been clicking refresh button for the nth time now and nothings working. it says cannot find server! ARGH! Dang it! I'll just upload it later then. Aish~ I can't go to my images section. WTF!
Anyways, on a brighter side, we had fun today! Everybody in the family went out! May 20 is my grandma's death anniversary. Today was my grandmother's death anniversary. We went to the cemetery all together, had a novena and went straight to the church for her special mass. We then went to their house and ate delicious food prepared by her niece and my aunt, Ate Bebie. She's quite an amazing cook! <3!
It has been a year since Tiya Lucy left us. Seriously, memories of the past are still fresh in my mind. Seeing her in that bed lifeless, no response, so still and stiff is breaking my heart. I cried a bucket when I saw her lying in there. I can't believe I wasn't able to say goodbye to her for the last time. Really. It just hurts remembering these kinds of stuff. It makes we wanna cry. I'm such a cry baby. T___T She will always be remembered and loved~ may she rest in peace.
Next month's gonna be painful too. Mamet's 3rd death anniversary is on June 20th. She's my grandmother too! BTW, Mamet and Tiya Lucy are sisters. Mamet is the mom of my Mom. Tiya Lucy is the Aunt of Mom and she's still my grandmother.
Coping with death was never easy. Every year that'll pass adds the pain but I know they are now in heaven, happily together with our Creator. I know I should move on. But I'll never gonna stop myself from crying cuz I miss them so much.
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