Sometimes, things just happen~

Realization is one of the many things life has taught me. And I hope it would also change people the way it has changed me.

Yesterday, May 25th, we had a little random talk about stuffs. It was like spur of the moment kind of thing. Kuya Val, (kuya=oppa/hyung) asked me questions about studying and vice versa. I was just so awed when he told he was taking up Psychology

BTW, Kuya Val is my office mate. He also works temporarily at this public office I’m currently working at but compared to me, he has already worked there for a couple of months before I started working.

And so, I was literally jumping and clapping at my seat, and I swear I started liking him as much as I like Chunnie. I mean, I started to worship him because I find him really freaking cool. Angelie too~ (She’s my partner in chaos at that public office.)
Why? Because…

Me: Is it true that Psychologists can determine a person’s attitude by simply looking at the way he/she writes the letter T?
Kuya Val: *blink blink* I… don’t think so.
Me: *hopes died* But my friend said she read it on an article… *pout*
Kuya Val: Maybe we haven’t discussed that topic or something yet.. BUT~
Me: But what?
Kuya Val: We can somewhat interpret dreams…
Me and Angelie: OHHHHHHH *amused, awed with stars forming in our eyes*
Kuya Val: hehe
Me: Can you interpret mine? Can you?


And so I started telling him about my random dream that really freaked the heck out of me. Why did it freak the heck out of me? Because in my dream, I actually died. Well, some of you might not mind it but me; it was something worth worrying about.

There were 4 of us in my dream and we were riding on a car; a man was on the driver’s seat, Mom was on the front seat next to the one driving the car and I and this little kid were sitting at the back of a car. Then all of a sudden, the scene changed and I was now on a house and there were people crying. I started felt like crying too when I saw the reason why everyone’s been acting weird= someone died.

As I approach the place where the dead person was laying, I started crying my heart out. The dead person was actually the little kid I was with in the car. And I saw Mom crying and narrating everything that has happened. And just like watching a movie, the scene started to rewind and then realization hit me, I also died in the car crash.
So, maybe it was just my soul wandering around.

After that awkward storytelling, Kuya Val just looked at me and started smiling. I was like, “What's with the face? Is it that bad? I mean, will someone die in my family?” He replied, “Not really but it’s kinda… private. Family matters. I can’t really tell it to you with everybody else listening.”

Srsly. Those just made my curiosity go up to the highest notch. I was bugging him to death. I even asked him to just write it on a piece of paper just so I can get the message. But all of my attempts just wouldn’t work. But eventually, Kuya Val gave in and told me the message.

First, he asked stuffs relating to family matters and all. Then he also asked if I was close with my Mom, do I share my secrets to her and stuffs like that. It took me a few seconds to say “Yes.” Because I myself isn’t really sure about that fact. But anyways I wasn’t really expecting for his interpretations.

He told me that I have always had this little secret. And that secret will be revealed today because I’m posting it like here in this freaky journal. I’m not so sure of the fact that some of you may already know this. But well, I haven’t really met my real biological dad for almost 17 years now.

And Kuya Val said something like:

“You want to have an intact and happy family and that you don’t want them or you to be separated.”






And that just made me cry.

He already warned me that it would be better if he was to tell me about his interpretation privately. It was evident that was he was reluctant. But I just don’t like it when someone tells me something and just like end there even if it’s not yet the end. I don’t really like teasers. 8D

Also, I have always been wanting to see my real dad. I mean, who doesn't want to see their real dads especially if they didn't really get the chance to see them for how many years. And I think that's what almost all kids, sons and daughters want for their family, to be intact and happy.

And I just couldn’t really believe at what he just said. I mean, I was out of words. It was a mixture of unknown emotions and all I did was to just let a single tear drop and fall.

I’m actually happy that I cried. I mean, when was the last time that I cried? Last month? Last week? Yesterday. But its okay because I believe everyone needs a little time of everything. I thought a cry wouldn’t hurt that much. I actually think it’s better than keeping it all inside.

Yesterday was also one of the many days I didn’t see coming. Angelie told me her secret nobody knows. Well, except me and Kuya Val because I truly believe he overheard what Angelie and I were discussing.

It doesn’t really matter.

For me, what we were discussing is reality and I think it would be better if we were to act casual on it. Be open with it and just accept the fact that no one’s really perfect. Angelie’s secret is kinda intriguing and I promised her I wouldn’t tell anyone about it so I’ll not talk about it here.

Maybe by the time the right moment comes, I’ll finally be able to talk more about it.

It’s funny actually. Long time ago, I used to have self-pity for myself because I don’t feel that I belong. Maybe it was because of the realization that I am an illegitimate child. But after that realization, it somehow made me have a new perspective or outlook at life.

I started understanding stuffs and finally had answers to my own questions.

In Angelie’s case, she’s still finding the answers. I feel proud of myself though because she confided in me to think we’re total strangers. We don’t really have a connection or like a bond something that makes us related to each other. I’m happy Angelie trusted me. And it just makes me happy.

She also promised me that by the time she gets answers to her questions, she’ll tell me.




I’m sorry for the sudden shift of story. Hehe. I thought I just had to post this cute happening. It’s not always like this in my life. And I don’t know why they have been coming out all of a sudden. After all, I believed that everything has a reason.

It’s funny how life has taught me wonderful lessons at weird moments. XD

And so,I better go to bed now because it’s close to 0100 hours.

I'm coming home :)

This is going to be my last post since staying at my Auntie's place. Me and Tita Agnes have spent 3 days here at Ate Tata's house. If you haven't noticed in my previous posts, the location's "Auntie's Flat". haha.

We will go home tomorrow. I still think Ate Tata's place is sexier than ours. *grin*
I get the chance to wear just a big tee and an underwear. LOL.
I can't really do that at home. Mom's like.. *shrugs*

It feels like we're having a sleep over and we're all 13 year olds. haha!

Anyways, since tonight (or today because its 0020 hours already) is my last night here at Auntie's place, I'd just like to blog about what we've done the whole day. XD Because we didn't have anything important to do, we just had a movie marathon.

We started with a movie I just couldn't remember and then watched Spring Break. XD I suppose it was a movie shown few years back. I'm not really sure but the movie was cute and fun to watch. ^^

We only ate, laid, watched TV and went online for the past hours. We're such lazy people. What was that word again, procrastinator? Was it? haha. Dang, my vocabulary needs some refreshing.

Anyways, it rained just now and thanks to the headphones I'm using, the rain drops didn't damage my sexy ears. lol

I can feel the roof banging because the rain was just so hard. It's as if someone's hammering the roof down. Really.

We also watched BOF and we're stuck at episode 4. Why? Because we're all sleepy already. hahaha.

And tomorrow's a few more hours and it'll be Monday, and that means work again. *sigh*

I really dislike Mondays. pfts~

Oh, and this week will be my last week at Temporary Job. It's bye bye now to my "co-workers" and "boss".
Maybe I'll blog about my Temporary Job and contemplate on it and realize how it has changed me..

Junsu has recovered already~ ! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA! OKay, that was random.


Hmmmy... so what else? *thinks* AH! I'm waiting for 2NE1's live perf now..but it seems like YouTube is having some maintenance, maybe I'll just wait later this morning.

May is starting to end and June is coming.. Ah~ time flies so fricking fast. I have to enrol myself to the university before the enrollment closes. I'm bad but I'm excited for college! *flails* My dentist told me I'm expecting a wisdom tooth within this year. Ah. Pains. But hey~! It's wisdom! haha.

So, I guess I really need to go now. But I'm still updating this blog. haha!


Toodles noodles koodles~

Signs of Old Age?

So, I just wanna share to you what happened to me this morning during my bubble bath~ (and don't freaking hope for some one-on-one smex or something sort off because this post is clean and neat and healthy. :P)

I thought I was gonna barf or puke all of my insides out. I has this really weird feeling in my stomach, as if someone cast a spell on me. XD Say a witch craft of some sort. Someone must've used a voodoo doll and twisted it in many directions that made stomach started to somersault.

It took me a few minutes to settle my crazed stomach into peace. Man, if you were in my place, you'd probably just wished to puke all your insides out instead of actually fighting. And I was fighting it.

I mean, I thought I gonna puke. But I didn't because I just don't feel like puking on the bathroom. But the stupid stuff in my stomach just wants to get out and you know, do their things. *sigh*


Tonight, while me and Auntie dined to a Chinese restaurant, I told her what happened and she said she also experienced the same. And she thinks I am Anemic. T.T

So, I did some research and~

What Are the Signs and Symptoms of Anemia?
The most common symptom of anemia is fatigue (feeling tired or weak). If you have anemia, it may seem hard to find the energy to do normal activities.

Other signs and symptoms of anemia include:

-Shortness of breath
-Dizziness
-Headache
-Coldness in the hands and feet
-Pale skin
-Chest pain

These signs and symptoms can occur because your heart has to work harder to pump more oxygen-rich blood through your body.

Mild to moderate anemia may cause very mild symptoms or none at all.

Out of the 6 symptoms, I've experienced 5 of them. Coldness in the feet and dizziness is often. Oh dude. I'm feeling really ill right now. I really need to go and see a doctor. T_T

Thirstday~

I think my brain needs water every now and then so that it won’t get dehydrated and for it to function appropriately. :P

Today was really tiring physically and mentally.

Last Tuesday, Mom called the school where I took an entrance exam for college and received good news, I passed! Ahaha. Then, today, Thursday, I went to the school for a medical check-up. It’s like a requirement.

I had a dental check-up and the dentist said I should really get rid of the old tooth I have. It should be pulled out so that makes 5 teeth already. I’ve had 4 or my tooth pulled in the last 5 years. I’ll probably be tooth-less when I grow old. T_T

I have undergone 4 different tests: a chest X-ray, urinalysis, blood test and stool exam in that order.

It’s my first time to have an X-ray and I couldn’t help but get a little nervous. It was fascinating though because the machines really looked cool and the X-ray didn’t really last long. I think it only lasted for a minute or two. It was so fast just like that.

Then the blood test was bloody, literally. The amount of blood discharged from my blood stream was not that much compared to the one when I had a blood test to identify my blood type. But I swear, the sound of the needle sinking into my skin was just so frightening. It’s as if the needle was singing, “I got you, under your skin”. Hahahaha!

It was fun though. It was just one of the many things I did with bravery. I didn’t hesitate nor think twice on actually doing it or not. I’m so proud of myself. ^^

After the tests I had, I went to Mom’s office for lunch and stayed there until 4pm. Tita Bonet and I then met up to a Samsung service center for a camera check-up. Haha. The poor old camera needs to undergo a surgery. T.T and it’ll cost us a rough US$50.

It has to wait for a while first. We still need to find US$50.

But above all, although it was a tiring day, I’m still very happy because it’s the start of something new in my life. I guess this is the new beginning.

So that’s how my day went. XD

Pics during Jessie's birthday party~

Yeah.

So, last April 23rd was Jessie's birthday and we went to her house because we were invited. XD And we had fun, so much fun and we snapped some pics and made sure everyone has copies of it and viola! CHEESE~!

This was taken at our high school university. We didn't have any place to set as our meeting place. XD I'm the one wearing the brightest colored shirt. haha!




Before the food was served. lol




While the food was served...




We're hardcore like that. XP








After the food was served. XD While everyone's already done, I was still munching







Because we just can't get enough of ourselves...





I was wearing sunglasses because my eyes looked like that of a Panda's. And it's not very pleasing to look at. Darn temporary job. T_T But hey, I looked fashionable, neh? ahaha







Never mind our positions. We were in a hurry in that pic. haha





Me and Jessie





*face palm*



Last pic before we ended the day.













And, stolen pics snapped by Loren.








hahaha. I actually was very tired that day. But I had fun! XD



Toodles♥

P.S.
I'm still alive. ^^